11 - Soheila Fors - Voice of the Exposed Women

Today, we have a special guest with us, she is a Swedish-Kurdish author and activist against the Welcome to the channel, Soheila Fors, how is the feeling to be here? It’s good actually. For those who don’t know you, can you give us a closer presentation? Name is Soheila Fors Kalhor, I’m Kurdish from Iran, Gilan-e Gharb to be exact, our tribe is also named Kalhor. I’ve lived in Sweden for almost 27 years. I’ve struggled against the Honor-culture for almost 20 years. Which interests do you have on your sparetime? I love to ride, I’ve received a hunting certification, I like the nature Let’s talk about when you grew up in Rojhelat, in what society did you grow up in? My time there wasn’t very good, when I was only 3-4 years old, my dad was placed in jail. There was a lot of oppression and as a very young girl I was interested in Human Rights questions. I saw how the Kurds were being treated.

It wasn’t easy, but all of this awaken feeling within me to do the right thing for other people. In my earlier days, the left-wing movements were the strong ones. When I was 13-14 years old, I joined a left group’s military group. We are going to talk more about this organization that you were in. Today though, you are very active in the question of honor. If you would describe the honor question, what is it? Honor culture is cultural patterns that is limiting the freedom of rights of other people with regards to the family honor. It looks different in different families, it depends on which family you are from, which status you have, which education one have and so on… Which rules a family have is making all the difference. All of them has different restrictions. It has not been easy, but we have helped a lot. You have experienced honor-culture yourself, tell us about it.

03:52 - When I was young and in love, I married a man against my family’s will. In that case, it wasn’t the right choice, in the end. He moved here and I came with him, however I was abused by him here. Later on, I was placed in a home for women in Gothenburg. It was a night over there as I decided to start do something for other women like me. It took a lot of years, but now I’m here.

04:21 - How old were you when you was in this women house? And it was now you decided to work with women? Yes, I could either become disappointed and bitter or I would make this my lesson in order to do something out of it. When I look at this oppressed women, I see myself in them. I try to be a voice for them. It’s about million of people who need help and it is not only me working for this everyone has their own history you said, that honor-culture can be different for every case, looking at your case, did you feel a organized support at that time? Unfortunetaly no, because when we moved here we didn’t come with only our bags, everyone of us had a mental bagage with us. A world view, a look on the society, the role of the family… The culture, the language, it’s all different and when I came I didn’t know the language.

05:40 - I didn’t know anything about the laws and rights of women. For a while I got a lot of strong medication. I took around 17 pills everyday. I don’t think that medication can replace social or political problems. I’ve had these physical and psycological problems myself. Correct me if I’m wrong, but you had two childs too when you arrived in Sweden. That is right. How was it to come here with them as a “baggage” aswell. When I look back at these times, I feel bad for my childrens. When my son Arash, was 9, he had to defend me. He threw himself over me and said don’t hurt her. Or my other child, 4 years old, who always was worried for me. This stuff effects my childrens of course. Do you know why he did this? Did he give you any explanation? I think it is about control and ownership.

07:07 - When some men, can’t handle the freedom that exists here for women. They can’t handle that women can go out freely, educate themself or work… They can’t handle this culture, it is all about values between east and west. It’s like oil and water, it is very different. And the status that a man had in the home country can disappear here. Here the man may be forced to clean while the woman goes to SFI to learn the language. Some men can’t handle it. In Sweden we have a growing problem which is the honor-problems. This problem has been ignored in the west the last 20-30 years, why do you think that is the case? People are afraid of being labeled a racist or islamophobic. But we don’t fight a religion or a race. We fight for the liberation of the women. The debate has gone in the wrong direction. Honor-violence is not the same thing as relationship-violence.

Relationship-violence is about when two persons who wants to take out their anger on each other. It’s about power… Honor violence on the other hand is about one person against a whole village. It can be 20 persons against 1. Maybe one person holds the knife, but behind this person, there is a decision. A decision from a family. And in aspecially Sweden, we haven’t been good in differenciate between the two problems. It’s also about ignorance. Looking at Sweden in the 90s when Pela was murdered and later on when Fadime was murdered, until today, are we better or worse in dealing with this issue? It is better now, we are better in discussing these questions. But we still have a long way to go.

09:59 - People dare to talk about these question, to differentiate between the problems. To say that this is about honor and not about racism. Sometimes when I hold a lecture, someone have stand up and shouted that “This is racism, you can’t talk about these questions”. This makes me sad since I know that they haven’t experienced these things. I often say to them to come and practice with us, so that you can see how we live. When you listen to the girls histories maybe you will understand more. These people who calls you racist, has it been Swedes or people of other ethnicities? It’s been both. Going back to your life in Rojhelat, you mentioned marrying very fast in your life. In what age did you marry? I was 18 years old. And this was your decision? It was my decision, yes.

What did your family say? Why were they against it? 11:16 - In our culture, we marry each other, with relatives, or with someone we know, but this person was a complete stranger. My parents didn’t approve of him. Without that history, I wouldn’t be here today. Everyone has a history, but that is not important, what’s important is what we do with our history. I decided that this would be my lesson, I had suffered but also learned a lot from it. Did your family accept your marriage in the end? It was very very hard in the beginning.

12:00 - Unfortunately my dad pasted away and I guess it became a little bit easier but it was still something that brough shame upon my family. I have read about your relation with Pippi Longstocking, tell me about that story. When I was 9 years old, my dad bought me the Pippi books. When I read the books, Pippi became a symbol of freedom for me. She was a girl who loved her dad. She showed everybody that girls can too. I’m so happy that I read that book, because as a girl in that enviroment that I had you often hear that you don’t have any value as a girl. You gonna be forced to marry someone… But Pippi learned me alot.

13:01 - I saw the picture of Pippi in the other room, I’m interpretering it as you trying to show your strenghts to the other girls here, is that right? That’s true, When I meet these girls, i’m trying to tell the girls that there is a way out, there is a lion within you, just let it come out and roar. Sometimes we meet up here and roar together. This must start from the women themselves. They have to believe in themselves. As a 14-years old girl you took weapon in your hand and joined a organization to fight against injustice, tell us more about this. During the Iran-Iraq war we fled to the mountains… Together with some cousins, we got the responsibility to take care of the older people in the mountains. It was terrible. I often say that there is two types of people, those who have experienced war and those who haven’t. I saw a lot, I saw a woman who ran without her head a few meters after a bomb hit her. There is a lot of terrible memories. We may be war wounded but in west they are peace wounded. People don’t understand what we have gone through.

14:46 - You were only 14 years old when this happened, for how long did you fight and how did it affect you as a child? I was there for 3 years, we used to have secret meetings since it was forbidden. My best friend was arrested, raped and murdered. We used to publish the paper “Kar”, it was a newspaper that our left party published and we distributed it night times. We were spotted by the religious police on the streets, 2-3 in the night, I managed to escape but she was arrested and killed. Let’s talk about Sweden as a country, it must be a very big contrast to move from a war zone to Sweden? Everything was different here, I remember the first time in Sweden I saw a naked statue.

15:56 - I thought for myself that “God will punish me for seeing a naked statue”. Everything was different. I was scared. I saw couples without marriage, I saw lesbian women who kissed openly. Seeing old people alone, it was a whole other world. There was no place for me to turn for information. It scared me. How did the Swedish people treat you? There was one priest and his wife who really took care of me. His name was Gunnar Hellerby from Hedermora. They helped me a lot to adapt to the society by learning me the language. The supported me through the abusement period. I have good memories of the Swedish people. Which dreams did you have when you were a child? I wanted to be a pilot. Last year I was on my way to start that dream.

17:30 - Why did you want to become a pilot?` I guess I like the freedom feeling when flying. Beside the interview we also have three mini-moments, it is time for the first one, the Truth or False moment. False. It is right. True. False. False. Mahabad-republic was supported by Sovjet and that’s a communist symbol. True. Yes, ⁴⁄₅, that is good! Let’s go back to the question and talk about the Honor-problem. What do you think is the most important thing to do in Sweden and in the World to solve this problem.

19:10 - I believe alot in education and I believe alot in that it is the women who will change the future. It is the women who can bring peace to the middle east, if we just get the possibility to educate, learn and stand on own feets. Why is it that a man has to have 4 wifes? This is wrong. The new younger generation has a responsibility to talk about these questions. Be brave to discuss them. Be brave to stand up for yourself. Because the world has changed. When you look at the younger generation, are you optimistic and hopeful for the future? I believe in the future, when I see beautiful youths I get full of joy.

The new generation will succeed, but it will take time. I read an article on Aftonbladet where you mentioned not liking it here in Sweden, you tried to commit suicide several times, you turned in your feelings when you became a christian, what was the reason that you choose christianity? I didn’t choose christianity. I didn’t choose christianity, In the beginning I hated it. My first husband went to the church and I experienced a falsehood and thought every christians was like that. But I didn’t feel very well both psychological and physical.

One day I was awaken by a light in my room, and I actually saw Jesus. I don’t like discussing religion, in my opinion religion causes problem. God is love and he exists within you, in her and everywhere. People should be free and choose their own way to God, or they can choose not to. Freedom is more important to me than religion, since I’ve grown up alongside religious oppression. Many close to me were deeply religious muslims while my dad was kind of liberal. I have no problems with other people if they have other beliefs. The important thing is who you are as a person. Look at the trees for an example, a tree that is good gives good fruit but a tree that is bad gives bad fruit, its as simple as that. I can sit down with muslims and christians, we all have to respect each other. But religion has formed a lot of problems. My belief is about love. Love your neighbor as yourself. I believe in the light.

22:27 - You are also an author, you have written the books “Love became my weapon” and “Behind every window there is a heart”. What can you say about theese books? I started to write very early in my life. I was only 10 or 11 when I received a school price for my work about trees evolving to shoes. I cared a lot about the enviroment as a young girl. But when I got married, I wasn’t able to write as much as before. Here in Sweden, I got another place. I’m so greatful for this country.

I’m not fully worth as a women here and even though I’m a refugee, I got myself 23:22 - a platform to work from. Through this books I’m trying to talk about how it is to be a refugee or a woman. The goal is to inform others and talk about the existing problems. When you are writting these books, do you have a special target group? To everybody, but beside that I got a letter from Stockholms Law firm who thanked me for my books which they have used for their investigations. I have also received prices from The Swedish Writters Union several times. It makes me happy.

24:05 - I never imagined it would go well for me in authoring. I have a lot of books from my youth which I may translate and publish in the future. Writting is for me like a therapy, it helps me a lot. People often ask me how I handle the pressure, I just write but as a public person, you are very lonely. You don’t really have the same social network as other people have. Due to the hate I receive, I’m not very free to move everywhere I want. But it is still worth the struggle. It is about these women and their liberation. And today you showed us your recent book? Yes, this is my latest work, I also have a part 2 that I am working on. Tell us a little bit about these books. It is about a girl who’s dad sells her. He is an addict. The girl is very young when she run away to Sweden. She faces problems also here in the refugee camp. Are your books based on true stories? It is, but I’m changing names and places to prevent others from recognizing it. Let’s talk about the organization Khatoon, which you founded and are responsible for.

25:44 - The whole project with these teahouses are very interesting, they are located in different places in Sweden and you also have one in Duhok right? Yes, we did open one in Duhok, we were supposed to open 8 of march this year but Corona prevented us. But the premises exists, and we have a bakery there. It’s called three crowns. A swedish bakery in Kurdistan. The goal is to get exposed women there into work and we want to take a Swedish baker to Kurdistan to learn them different pastries. You are very welcome there in time. But yeah, we got our centrum there. We just wait for Corona to be over. During these years that you have struggled, have everything been smooth or has it been difficulities? Of course, there is a lot of resistance, but I’m not giving up. It is hard but I’m kind of stubborn aswell. Do you feel like you have achieved something? I hope that I actually have…

There is others too like Amineh who is struggling a lot, I’m so proud over these Kurdish women. Let’s do the second moment, it is called the Kurdistan Quiz. I will show you some pictures, which you have to guess what it is. I hope that I’ll succeed. This flag is the first picture. Do you know anything about it? No, I don’t know. I’ll help you out a bit, it is from Bakur and it is a flag from a revolution, about 100 years ago. Do you know the name? And the republic who was formed at that time? Yeah, what was it again…? I don’t remember it.. Here we have a little blurry picture. Is it Newroz? Yes, but who is the picture of? I have to look closer. Yes do it. I’m so bad at this. Why was Newroz formed? Because of the importance of fire. No, tell me instead. Kawa. Kawa, of course! And the head is of the dictator. Yeah, I know the one with the snakes. I have read about it of course. Do you know where this is? Is it Dukan? No. It is the lake of Van.

29:34 - Interesting, I have been there when we drove past it. Now I have embarrassed myself. No no, you did a very good first moment. It is so beautiful, I want to be there. This is the Nemrut area. Yeah right. It represents the graves of kings from the 100 B.C. I have to go there. I haven’t been there either. It is hard since we are boycotting Turkey, we can’t go there. Not me either. Why is that? I have written a lot about the Turkish government. Let’s go back to the questions again. You have been exposed of threats and harassment, a couple of years ago there were threats of your life against you I read about a threat from ISIS, do you want to tell us about it? I helped a lot by collecting money to our peshmerga and guerilla.

31:00 - A lot of times I send money to them, I wrote poems and texts on my Facebook page. One day when I was shopping I got the note on my car window “You will die”. The same evening I got a call “Daesh will cut your head off”. How did you feel about that? It wasn’t the first time and I don’t think that it is the last time either. It has been going on for a time now, but I won’t give up. What feelings do you feel? Are you scared or angry? Afraid, I don’t know, of course I think about my children and their safety. If I die then I die with a straight back. I’m not afraid to die, but I’m afraid of failing other. Maybe one day you hear from other that she has been killed. At my place at least we have a good security with fences and other things since people have intruded to hurt us. One time they threw a incendiary in our garden, it has been very hard and my childrens are affected by it too, but that is just how it is.

32:46 - I wanted to ask you about that, could you tell me more about this incendiary that they threw in your garden? I was at home and we have a smaller house in the garden where my daughter was. She studies in the states but she was home visiting. Sometimes she decorates with candles and I saw the flames and thought “what is she doing?”. The flames became stronger and stronger. When I opened the door I saw the fire. I called for my husband and we were able to extinguish the fire our neighboors found traces of the perpetrators. After this incident, we have fixed with a better security fence.

33:42 - Did you involve the police? There was two young police women who took some pictures but then they dropped the case. Our neigboors said that they had seen a car with a german registration number… The prepertators exists and they don’t give up, just as I don’t give up. When you see this kind of reaction from these criminals, are you motivated to keep going? I get angry and when I get angry, I want to do more. Of course it affects me, I get tired, I’m not a robot. I’m a human being, but I don’t want to give up. If I give up then they win, I don’t want them to win. In the end maybe they kill me and win, but then I die for something valueable. Let’s talk about the situations in Kurdistan, which challenges do you see the Kurds face today? One challenge we have is the different parties and their party branches, we should all cooperate and agree more. It is about Kurdistan, not about the parties. People outside of the parties are getting triggered by this. I think we should support each other instead of backtalking each other. Support instead of destroy. Our enemies wants us to fight each other.

Their goal is to divide us, and in many ways they have succeded. Kurdistan has everything, gold, oil and so on but still we are poor, why is that? It is because we can’t agree with each other. Let’s start support each other. If we talk about the future, what do you think? Will we see Kurdistan independent in 10 years? 30 years? It is up to us, we have to stop dealing with clans, parties and ideologies. We have to think about the country first. What is the best for Kurdistan? When we think about that then we can cooperate and sit down together. I think that maybe the new generation is better than the older about this. It is up to you and up to me.

36:46 - How much do you know about the honor culture situation in Kurdistan? There is a lot of it unfortunetaly. It is a hard question about honor. I met a girl in a village, she was 11 years old, a shepherd. She told me that she wanted to study to learn stuff but her father refused. This way of thinking is very wrong. Women can be ministers, politicians and authors if we get the space and air we need. This way of thinking must change. Except from the work you have in Duhok, are you doing anything in Kurdistan for exposed women? I try to sit with people and talk about that there is no difference in being a man or a women. This way of thinking has destroyed a lot.

We have so many potential scienticts out there who instead sits home and can never achieve their dreams. We have a lot of potential doctors who could become something and do something with their life. When a family or a culture stands in the way, it is wrong. It is important that we talk about these problems. What do you want to say to all the exposed youths watching this? Don’t give up, stand up for what you believe, stand up for what your heart tells you, contact somebody who understands you and talk with you. You are not alone, there is many in your situation.

39:10 - If you got the chance to talk with a 20 years old yourself, what would you say? Don’t stir up things. Do you stir up things? Yes, I have been like that. I would tell her to think first and then act. When I was 20 years old, I had so many dreams but they shut them out. I wasn’t able to flee or breath. I had so many dreams and visions, but I couldn’t imagine me being here and do this. Take it easy, if you are stubborn you will succeed. If you got the chance to go back in life and change something. What would that be? To listen to my dad. My dad really loved me, we had such a good relation but he didn’t want me to marry my first husband. I regret not listening to him. We could have seperate from each other in a better way before he died. We never talked about the teahouse? 2005-2007, we worked in Kurdistan before I moved to Karlskoga and I studied Komvux. I also have plans to keep going with my studies to become a nurse.

41:07 - When I studied I met with a woman, who was abused for drinking coffée in town. There I got the idéa to form a coffée house only for women. I started with a little room, it was really hard in the beginning. I remember some people, evey women, saying that I had opened a school for whores. No, it is not a school for whores, it is to help women. After 9 months, we finally got some money to invest in the téa house, we have helped a lot of people now. The goal is to break insulation. To help these women to adapt to the Swedish society. To help them learn the language and get a job. We have helped thousands of women. I was in northern Sweden to speak and a woman asked if she could join me on stage and I invited her, then she told me that thanks to the téahouse she was not educated and had a job and a driving license. I was so happy to hear that. You teach them different subjects here right? Yes, we have Swedish which is important, I also want them to learn civics. I remember when I learned civics, it was a whole new world who opened for me. I got the highest grade.

42:45 - We also learn them about the body and sexual education. We have people working here, nurses, curators and Swedish-For- Immigrants-teachers. We didn’t talk that much about Khatoon and Sara’s house, what it is, who are there and what you do for them. Sara’s house is in cooperation with Swedish police and social services in all of Sweden. It is the largest protective home in all of Scandinavia.

43:29 - Sometimes the women call themselfs, sometimes the social services calls us and then we can see if there is a need for them to seek protection with us. Sometimes they are abused, sometimes they don’t have any clothes and this happens in the middle of a democracy. We have childrens who are forcely married. It is shameful. For the last moment, we have a personal one, let’s see what you prefer. Summer or winter? Winter. Summer reminds me a lot of my home country. Skydiving or seadiving? Skydiving. Yaprax or Shish Kebab? Yaprax.

44:37 - Hassan Zirak or Sivan Perwer? Hassan Zirak. Super strong or super fast? Super strong. Chocolate or candy? None of it, fruit.. If you could bring one thing to a lonely island, what would it be? Pen and paper. If you could met one person in the world, who would it be? That was a hard question. I want to meet someone with a lot of power, someone that can support me to build a home for children in Kurdistan. I want to collect all wealth in the world and do something for others. If you want to choose one animal to be, what would it be? A tiger. How come? They are strong. That’s it, thank you for joining us. My name is….. and I just became 19 years old. I’m from Kurdistan but I mostly have grown up in Sweden. When I was 5 years old my parents got divorced. He remarried another woman. With my mom he had 4 childrens. Me and my 3 siblings.

46:24 - He took me and my older brother and his new wife to Sweden. We lived here for 6 years but didn’t get any resistance permit, eventually we were sent out of the country and had to go back… It was only me, my brother and father. My stepmom didn’t come with us. She had children here, so she got her permit. When we returned, I had to go back to my mother. I was with her, eventually my dad got a permit aswell due to his wife who as I said lived in Sweden. My brother called him and said that he also wanted to go there.

My father called a family here and took him over to Sweden. I also wanted to go but my mom was against it since I was a girl, I was not allowed to do the same thing and to be free like my brother. After a few months, we finally go since my brother made it possible. As we arrived to Sweden, we started to talk with the the Swedish Migration Agency My mom told everything from her perspective. I was under 18 years old and couldn’t speak for myself. I have always wanted to be with my dad since I grew up with him. My mom is very strict and very religious. My dad is not like that, I’ve always want to be close to him, but my mom didn’t like him since he had another wife. She didn’t want us to be near him. It became like a battle of who wins the kids? She tried to hold us, espacially me because I’m a girl and the relatives would be talking otherwise. She was afraid of the relatives and about what they would say. Eventually me and my mother got a bad connection between each other.

Since our views were different it became worse and worse. I was forced to wear a hijab when I was 13 years old. I was forced to follow the religion even though I didn’t know anything about it. They forced me to pray, they forced me to follow rules. You are not allowed to speak with boys and they were very strict against me. In Sweden we got rejection from the Swedish Migration Agency, so my mom wanted to go to Germany. Her sister lived in Germany and when she talked over the phone with her sister, she talked with the speaker on, so I could hear that they were planning to force marry me I had a cousin who was forced married when she was 18. They could do it earlier to, but at latest when the girls are 18. After a few months my cousin got pregnant and due to her husband she was forced to drop out of school. I was really afraid that this would be my case too.

My aunts husbands friend was single and was planned for me. The girls must be married to someone who is religious and who follows the rules. I never saw him and the plans were already settled. When I became 18 years old my grandmother said, why don’t you marry her now to my mother. I became even more scared, I didn’t know what to do and didn’t talk to anyone. I was depressed. I was thinking that I would be controlled by these people until I get married and then I’ll be controlled by my husband until I die. No freedom. I didn’t know what to do. They gave me 1 week to decide. I was the only one who made resistance, my other siblings were smaller, they didn’t understand anything. I couldn’t do as they told me, even though it was forced on me. The week past, and I tried to go to school as normal. I cried when I was alone because I knew I would have to leave everyone in school.

53:07 - On thursday, when I had one day left, I didn’t know what to do. If I would wait to friday I knew they would do something. At the time I was too scared to say something. I also had a curator which I got from my mentor, she knew that I didn’t feel well and tol me to go there. She noticed that there was something wrong. But I didn’t tell her because I was afraid that it would become even bigger. I was threatned several times. I felt really bad, but in everything that happened I got myself a boyfriend at school. We were together for about a year. In one occassion my brother went into my phone and saw everything, he knew that I had a boyfriend. He made a really big thing out of it, he told my mother. They took my phone from me and threated me. They forced me to brake up with him.

55:12 - I asked my family several times why my brother were allowed to have a girlfriend, why is it forbidden for me? They always answered that he is a boy and I’m a girl. I tried to understand but I never could. What is the difference? He was only two years older than me. He wasn’t a grown up man or anything. They took my phone and threatned that I wasn’t allow to do anything, or talk with boys. They threatened to kill the boys I was talking to. I got a one month long curfew without being able to go out or have a phone. It was then I noticed my depression. I just sat all day in my room looking at the roof. Everytime my friends knocked on the door and asked me to come out I had to say that I felt ill or something even though I wanted to go out.

56:33 - I was always forced to be home and clean the house and do stuff at home instead of going out with my friends. After one month, school started. They gave me my phone back but made it clear that I only had one chance and one little mistake, they would break my phone. They said that they would control it everytime, and look in the phone. I was more scared, my mother used to spy on me in school. She knew which times we had breaks, she came sometimes to spy and look if I talked to any boy or who I was hanging with.

57:45 - I wasn’t allowed to wear what I wanted, always full-coverage clothing It was like this for a while until that week when I had to make a choice. That friday morning when I woke up, I didn’t know what to do, I told my teacher that I wouldn’t come the first lesson. I had to find a solution. I went to the second lesson, I felt really bad and my mentor noticed this. She took me to a room and asked how I felt, and I couldn’t hold myself from telling her. She told me to go to the curator and tell her about this. They all knew that the end solution could be that they would kill me to clean up the honor. By doing so the relatives couldn’t talk, the family reputation would not be bad within their world. They said that the only way possibile is through the social services. It was really hard for me to do because it was a big thing. I really felt alone. They said that the social services would take me somewhere and I was worried I wouldn’t make it on my own.

59:49 - But it was the only way and I was forced to take that only way. So we went to the social services. They placed me in a home in Flen. I was really scared. The apartment was empty. The lamps didn’t work. I had so many thoughts that night and couldn’t sleep. I thought about what they would do if they found me, would they hurt me? or kill me? The next day they took me here. There was good people around me, they gave me strenght, but they also didn’t understand what I’ve been through. Even though I was free at the moment, I still feared of my life.

01:10 - Even here I can’t go out because I’m afraid I would meet any of my family members by chance. I don’t know if they still are in Sweden or in Germany. I can’t contact any of my friends because my brother has threatened them too. My friends were scared too. I don’t want anyone to have any problems, so I have distanced myself. The next day, when they found out about everything my brother went looking for me at school, my mentor called me and told me that he had been there. Eventually two teacher threw him out of the school. My friend said that he looked really angry. This made me even more scared. So I distanced myself from everyone, I didn’t want to know anymore even though I was curious deep inside. When I ended up here I have been talking to the Swedish Migration Agency about my experiences. I didn’t tell them everything because I even now I don’t want to hurt my family. I know that they want the best for me, but I don’t work that way.

They want to control me and I can’t live like that. Sometimes I was forced to follow their rules. I thought if I told the Swedish migration agency everything, then maybe they would do something to my family. The subtitles are not finished, our translators works with fininshing them and we will have it done tomorrow evening. Thank you for your patience. .