everything that could go wrong, did go wrong

00:02 - It’s about 5:00 pm I think. I just had a moment where I completely forgot what time it is.

00:07 - It is a Monday. So, you know, busy day around here.

00:10 - Drew is actually doing a bike ride like the fake Peloton pack thing upstairs.

00:15 - So, if you hear some huffing and puffing, that’s what it is.

00:17 - It’s quarter to five, I lied. And I think I’m gonna start dinner because number one, we’re old and we eat early, number two, we’re going to make, it’s just a Stouffer’s lasagna, like the classic one.

00:29 - It takes like 70 or 80 minutes or something like that to bake.

00:32 - So that’s the reason I’m starting so early.

00:35 - Oh, I left my freezer open, cute. So, how’s everyone doing? Let me know in the comments below what you’ve been up to.

00:40 - How many of you have gotten the vaccine yet? I am like literally so excited that people I know are starting to get it and I’m just it gives me so much hope.

00:49 - Okay 375, here we go. (cooker chiming) I don’t know why I took this out.

00:55 - So while that’s preheating, okay, what have I been up to today? Well, it’s Groundhog Day, so every day is the fucking same.

01:02 - But I woke up this morning and I’ve tried to start like a new morning routine.

01:07 - My morning routine has always been like take care of the pets.

01:10 - Drew sleeps in just a little bit later because he works.

01:13 - So he’s trying to get in that sweet, sweet sleep whereas my job I’m lucky enough to where if I wanna take a nap during the day I can schedule time for that.

01:20 - But he works from 8:00 to 4:30 so he needs extra sleep.

01:26 - So anyways, I wake up at about 7:00 with the animals, feed them, come downstairs, I’ll usually empty the dishwasher, if there’s any laundry I’ll fold it, maybe pick up the dog poop in the backyard, open up the blinds, open up the house and stuff, maybe do a little bit of cleaning, not really like cleaning, but just like wiping off the counters, et cetera.

01:42 - Cause I’d know waking up and doing that first thing makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something.

01:47 - I know that’s sad. And usually like Drew wake up shortly after and we’ll have our coffee together and stuff, walk Layla.

01:53 - But, I have been trying to sort of re-do my morning routine because I feel like lately I was taking showers at night which was making me not wanna work out in the morning.

02:04 - ‘Cause I was like, I feel so clean, like I feel like I just got cleaned so why would I want to work out? It’s preventing me because I can never find a time throughout the day.

02:11 - I am not an exercise at night person. You guys will have to let me know how you are down below but I just like, I don’t vibe with exercising at night.

02:18 - It just, if I can help it I don’t prefer it.

02:21 - I’m just much more like I just wanna wake up and get it done.

02:24 - So I woke up at 7:00 and I think by 7:30, I was on the bike.

02:28 - So that was pretty nice. And I’m gonna try to do that again because it made me feel really accomplished.

02:33 - Another thing that I’m trying to do is attempt to get ready even on days where I’m not gonna be on camera like today actually it wasn’t even planning on vlogging which is why I didn’t record any of the things I just mentioned.

02:43 - But I don’t know, I feel I have this conversation quite often on camera where I, when I’m going through bouts of depression or anxiety or my mental health isn’t doing great, I really struggle taking care of myself.

02:55 - I don’t do a very good job of taking care of myself.

02:58 - I think I do great job of taking care of those around me, but putting care into myself is something that I struggle with.

03:05 - I find things like doing my nails a chore, or doing my hair or makeup or whatever, but I’m trying to reframe that because I really enjoy it.

03:14 - It makes me feel good. So I’m trying to like, just like I said, yeah put more care into myself.

03:18 - And one of those things is exercise because I genuinely love the way I feel afterwards.

03:23 - I didn’t really love the way I feel during sometimes.

03:28 - Sometimes, I swear, I love having a YouTube channel but I’ll go back and edit footage and I’m like, what are you even talking about? So anyways, exciting times in this house, I didn’t manage to give Layla a walk today.

03:42 - So we might have to do that after we eat. How big baby? Wow look at those teeth.

03:47 - That is so beautiful. Somebody else’s walking over too.

03:52 - Oh, head budding me in the back. Say hello to people.

03:59 - No? Okay. Now I’m just sitting on the floor but honestly it’s fine.

04:02 - I’m a floor seater. I don’t remember what I was saying.

04:05 - Oh yeah, so yesterday we cleaned the entire house and I mean like deep cleaned the entire house.

04:10 - Do you guys ever get in a mood like that where you’re like I can not spend one more second with this house the way it is.

04:18 - One thing we’ve noticed upon living here as lovely as this house is, and it’s like, wow, what a privilege to be like my house is too big.

04:27 - But literally, we can’t manage. It’s too big.

04:31 - You have to clean every day. We couldn’t take it anymore so we vacuumed upstairs, downstairs, the stairs, I dusted, we cleaned the bathrooms, we cleaned all the counters, that kitchen, we did the dishes, we did the laundry, we wash every single blanket and dog toy, dog bed cover, like every little thing.

04:54 - Are you yelling at me ‘cause I’m not petting you? Are you kidding? If you ever see me and I’m sitting next to Layla but she’s not in the frame, I’m a hundred percent petting her just to get her to stop yelling at me.

05:06 - She’s very needy. But yeah, we cleaned the whole house, which was wonderful.

05:10 - It was just such a nice Sunday. My mom came over, we watched some discovery network thing on Japan.

05:16 - That was cool. And I, for once this weekend really felt like I was kind of rested, which is strange because, I’m sorry for the bike squeaking up there if you can hear that.

05:27 - But it does sort of feel like every day is Groundhog day.

05:31 - Like I said, it can feel draining to get on social media and see yet another influencer who’s had a birthday party or even people you know in your real life like getting together and going to brunch.

05:44 - ‘Cause you’re just like, oh my God so much hair is coming off your leg.

05:49 - She needs to be groomed so bad but unfortunately the groomer we used to take her to isn’t enforcing masks or something.

05:56 - I was reading some Yelp reviews of people saying that they don’t really wear masks and that someone confronted them about it and they were like, we don’t do that here.

06:05 - Just Arizona things. So anyways, I’ve doing a million things at once.

06:09 - This is the most boring start to a vlog ever but I’m just updating you on my life, you know.

06:21 - (machine beeping) See you in 70. Drew just finish up his workout and he’s taking a shower which is in our bedroom which is where I would normally go hang out but I don’t wanna obviously disturb his privacy.

06:31 - So I came up into the filming room. This actually gives me the perfect opportunity to clean this up because it is so messy.

06:38 - I feel honestly well, okay. Messy to me is different than messy to some people.

06:43 - So I’m fully aware of that, but it’s not that bad.

06:46 - We do have a pile of clothes with a bra from another video that I filmed, I think a couple of videos, actually.

06:52 - We have random packages. I believe that was the plastic package with the TikTok leggings came in.

06:58 - Got to do something about that. We have all these random chords which just are part of my life right now.

07:04 - I am eventually gonna film the room makeover in here, we’re going to figure out something with these curtains, either shorten them or get a different set of curtains to go in here and save these for something else.

07:13 - We also have this closet which I just really really don’t want to talk about like, oh no.

07:18 - This is all post office packages that I use for when I ship my Poshmark orders, this is like random clothes that I’ve either set aside for videos or clothes that I’ve already worn in videos.

07:28 - These are just random shoes that have somehow made their way up here.

07:32 - I think that’s like a random lens cleaning kit or something.

07:35 - We have some things to try on for future videos, sneak peak.

07:39 - We have some candles that I’ll have to talk to you about that in a minute.

07:43 - And then we have clothes that either I wanna do some DIY in with these, and then these are all the clothes that I have left to be sold.

07:51 - It’s so, so much. I’m thinking about upcycling this desk.

07:56 - You all will have to let me know your thoughts but I think I might actually try to tile this desk.

08:02 - Is a little bit of a sneak peek and I’d obviously leave the legs the way they are.

08:05 - But the only thing that concerns me is this part right here because there’s like a little lip.

08:10 - So I don’t know if I would just make the tiles taller and then they’d have to like stick out, I don’t know.

08:16 - If you have any suggestions let me know but I’m thinking about like tiling over this, ‘cause this desk is in bad shape and I honestly don’t want to get rid of it ‘cause it’s fine.

08:24 - It works fine. And why buy a new one when you have one that works? Not like wood you can’t sand it down or anything, it’s like that, I can’t think of the word right now but it’s like particle board that has a cover over it.

08:35 - So anyways, enough with the chitter chatter let’s get clean.

08:38 - (upbeat music) Just realized that it is now five o’clock, so it is time for the babies to eat.

09:02 - Parsley, Layla, favorite time of day. Get fresh water.

09:07 - What is this cardboard in your water? He just opened a box, so sorry Layla.

09:14 - Of course can’t forget the moopies and yes, we moved in with that thing looking like that.

09:19 - I don’t want to talk about it. Little buddy are you hungry? You are? (cat meows) Okay.

09:27 - He has some inflammation in his digestive system.

09:30 - I honestly don’t know the medical term for it but we basically have to feed him smaller amounts more frequently instead of large amounts a couple of times a day.

09:40 - Because of his tooth we started him on wet food and now we’re having to give him those little like perfect portions things.

09:47 - Can any other cat people relate to this? Anyways, okay back upstairs ‘cause I wanted to show you one of the massive failures of my life that happened in me attempting to film a video but you’ll just have to see it.

10:00 - All right. So I thought I’d show yes thing that happened because these actually were in the trash, but I just went and got them out of the bathroom trash because I was like I have to show them, like this is so embarrassing.

10:13 - So I filmed a video the other day and it was me attempting to make those twisted bendy TikTok candles, bitch.

10:24 - When I tell you it was the biggest hot mess of my life, I have never felt so incompetent.

10:30 - I’ve never felt so incapable. Basically I filmed an entire video of me making these TikTok candles.

10:38 - I was like, how hard can it be? You put some candles, if you aren’t familiar this is what they’re supposed to look like.

10:43 - Just wait until you see what mine looked like.

10:44 - But I was like, how hard can it be? You put some candles in the pot water and you bend them.

10:47 - I don’t know, I had seen videos of people breaking theirs but I was like, they’re just being careless.

10:51 - Like they don’t know how to do it. My microphone, I started having some microphone issues, I’ve mentioned that in a couple main channel videos.

10:57 - I film on a different camera for vlogs than I do for main channel stuff, and my main channel camera I use an external microphone just ‘cause the sound’s better.

11:05 - And for some reason it just started like messing up when I was filming.

11:09 - And I thought that it was because it needed new batteries.

11:12 - So I changed the batteries, and I was like, cool everything’s good.

11:15 - I filmed an entire day’s worth of videos and all of the sound was just like shot.

11:20 - I don’t know how to describe it, there was just an extremely loud white noise.

11:24 - And I tried to remove the white noise and it was just a mess.

11:26 - I talked about it in another video. This was one of those videos.

11:29 - So the sound was terrible, like it was when I tell you terrible, it wasn’t usable.

11:33 - Like you can’t put a video like that on the internet.

11:36 - Like you could barely hear me, it sounded like talking like this.

11:39 - And like the white noise was so, so loud. So anyways, that was the first problem with it.

11:45 - The second problem was I was filming on two angles at one time, and one of the times I guess I didn’t press record, which was the majority of the video.

11:54 - So you could really only see the angle from down here, and I was doing stuff up here.

12:00 - So it was just like you were staring at my lap the entire time.

12:02 - It was just so bad. And then didn’t even mention the fact that this.

12:08 - (chuckles) This is what the candles turned out like.

12:11 - So I’m gonna give you a little hall of what my candles turned out like.

12:14 - So in this candle, which from afar doesn’t look too bad.

12:17 - Right? Like it looks okay. And then when you get up close, you see what it actually looks like.

12:23 - It’s crusty, it has orange on it which I used an orange candle, a green candle, a pink, a blue and some white.

12:33 - And unfortunately the wax from all the other candles melted all over it.

12:39 - So these are just all broken, they’re like peeling apart.

12:44 - I don’t know if you can see that. It’s just, this doesn’t look very good.

12:49 - So I was like, okay the shape’s not that bad but just the actual texture.

12:54 - These are so lumpy, trust me it gets better.

12:57 - So then I was like, okay, let’s try it like the twist thing, you know, we do the actual twist.

13:04 - - [Drew] What you’re doing? - Here, you can come check out my.

13:06 - - [Drew] Your candle candle poops? - Yeah.

13:09 - - Your weenies? - So here’s the, here’s the twisty guy.

13:14 - It looks really good. Like really professional, especially this part down here.

13:19 - I don’t know what the hell I made me think that I can do this.

13:24 - We have another blue one which honestly it was going well, then it broke.

13:29 - And then you look at the actual, again, you just look at the actual freaking candle, this just so bad.

13:36 - I know this camera is having a hard time focusing, whatever, you get the picture.

13:39 - Then we move on to, I think I was going for a snake moment.

13:45 - It was like the ones that stand up like this, you know? But again, just the most texture, absolutely atrocious.

13:54 - I mean, it broke in like three places. And the last two, I like the shape of, but just when you see what they look like.

14:01 - We have this one, which wouldn’t be bad. I thought about trying to like scrape it but I mean, so freaking ugly.

14:09 - Look at this, it’s supposed to be a solid candle.

14:12 - And then last but not least. (man laughing) - [Man 1] No, no, no, no.

14:17 - - Just a huge bummer that they ended up looking like this.

14:21 - So I’m going to probably throw these back in the trash can because that’s where they belong.

14:26 - So that was unfortunately a huge fail. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong.

14:32 - So this video will not live to see the face of the internet but you at least got to see it before they go in the trash.

14:40 - It’s sad, it feels wasteful. Like I feel bad about it, like I genuinely tried.

14:45 - Oh, by the way I think the problem was I just put way too hot of water.

14:50 - So when I first put it in there, I was like these aren’t bending at all so the water needs to be hotter.

14:54 - And then I over estimated and put way too hot of water and then they all just started melting.

15:01 - It was bad. Also, can I just mention how much I love my dad? We’ve been texting.

15:06 - We haven’t seen each other in over a year now and we just really miss each other and things go on in my life behind the scenes that you guys don’t know about.

15:14 - You know, anyways, and we were texting and he just sent me all these hearts.

15:19 - Hold on, can you see that? And he just sent me a bunch of hearts, and then he said, oops I forgot some and sent more.

15:25 - My heart, I love him so much. For those of you like, oh my God, I’m getting emotional.

15:30 - Nope, cut that off right now. Is that the Capricorn in me? Anyways, a lot of people ask, what’s the first thing you’re gonna do once you’re vaccinated and people are safe and it’s safe to travel, where are you gonna go? And I’m gonna go to Nashville.

15:44 - I’m gonna go see my dad. I miss him so much.

15:46 - I’m just really feeling the effects of that.

15:48 - Oh my God, I’m actually gonna cry. Oh my God, I did not expect your cry but I just I’m really missing my dad and it makes me sad because he’s like one of the closest people to me in my life and is truly like my best friend.

16:06 - And it just makes me upset because of course I’m grateful that like he’s still alive and he’s still safe from the pandemic, and he’s been really strict about it, but he lives by himself and he lives all the way out in Nashville.

16:18 - And you know, we were considering him coming out here in October, and then we were considering Christmas, and then obviously things just got crazy and we had to cancel it.

16:27 - And it just makes me so sad because when people are out partying and getting together in massive groups and stuff, it not only prevents us from being able to live normal life again, but it prevents some people from being able to see their family again.

16:41 - I mean, and some people permanently. This is coming from an experience of someone who just misses my dad because he lives in another state, not because COVID took him or, you know, whatever.

16:51 - And I don’t want to try and get like too preachy but I did not expect it to be emotional.

16:56 - I’m definitely gonna start my period for sure.

16:59 - Like what the hell? Also there’s a loose cat, a random cat in the street.

17:06 - Oh my God, he looks like he knows his way around.

17:08 - Anyways. Wow, just really love my dad and please stay home so I can see him again.

17:15 - I need a minute. Whew. Okay, wow.

17:17 - Ooh. I feel better. I just talked to my dad, cried it out a little bit.

17:21 - I’m definitely PMsing for sure. But also it’s just, you know, times are the way they are.

17:26 - So if you’re feeling the same way, you’re not alone.

17:29 - You are not alone. You are not alone.

17:30 - You are not alone. And I am here to tell you that even though things may look like they’re not turning out so great, things are going to be okay.

17:40 - They’re gonna be okay. I love you all very much.

17:42 - I’m gonna end this vlog here and enjoy my evening.

17:45 - Hope you didn’t mind that it was just sort of like a random afternoon vlog.

17:49 - Do you have any like vlog requests? Definitely leave them in the comments below because, you know, the content is few and far between when you’re just at home all the time.

17:58 - But anyways, gonna go eat my lasagna. It’s like almost done I think.

18:01 - Love you all very much. And I will see you very soon.

18:03 - Bye. (upbeat music).